April 3, 2014

• 500 miles

  I've mentioned having probs braining in the past, so I'm a little elated this week to notice a few more little lights coming back on. I've been keeping tiny flip spirals for daily date and time logging for any pills I take for the last at least 6 or 7 years. I couldn't remember from day to day or even hour to hour if I'd taken my thyroid pill or a blood pressure pill, and I'm not even that old. The last couple of years I've been experiencing some wonderful recovery from several years of brain crash, and this week I suddenly started remembering taking pills. I can even remember several days back and about what time I took them. Some of you are pshawing, saying we all forget, yada yada, but for someone who was accustomed to having somewhat of an eidetic memory for most of my life, it's a huge deal to lose cognitive function to the point of not remembering nearly everything you do. Between that and severe pain from trigeminal nerve damage, I had to stop reading and watching TV for a few years. It was a big deal in my psychologist's office several years ago to admit that I had to watch Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End four times before I could even follow the story. Before the brain crash, I sort of pitched a pirate story I'm working on. Now that my brain is coming back on, it's still in the queue. This pic links back to a post I made when I was first coming out of my brain crash.

  

  Four years is a long time in brain years, and I had let go of any hope I'd ever get it back. But when it did start coming back, I grabbed it and decided I WANT THIS even if I never get it all back. Everything I do is brain work. Everything I spend time creating is brain exercise. Everything I work on, no matter how silly or stupid, is me getting my mind back. Tiny steps over a long time adds up. I know it's a little late, but I wanna shout out to the first friend who ever saw the real me before I realized who I really am, before the big crash 7 years ago.

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