Month: May 2014

  • redneck A-list

    I suppose the fun part of twitter is when an A-list social club follows me to get listed and then DMs me every day with secret info about exclusive parties and asking if I'd like to join the guest list.


    I'd better slow down before I wind up running in Gerald Webb's sassy crowd.


    Right now I'm getting blueberry stains all over my kitchen, because that's how I roll in this house. I'm making up a stack of blueberry buttermilk applejacks to freeze back as singles, will last through June weekends.


    In a little bit we're going to get burrito so her mommy can do some work. I'm sure we'll get in all kinds of trubba today. In the meantime, this might be one of the scariest videos I've ever seen, mainly because I know people like this. o_o

  • early morning brain splat

    Already off on wild tangents at 5:30 a.m., looking up why microwaves will soon be obsolete and fiddling around with putting Lexx names and phrases into googlism. Kind of kicking myself for opening the grape flavored chewable waldryls by mistake. ick

    Had my phone apart umpteen times yesterday, finally just tossed it aside. I love tech, but the simplest things are made atrociously unsimple when the gap between intuitive movements and geeky glee widens to a chasm. It's like my 'smart' washer- supposed to save time, energy, and ultimately water, but hogs more than triple of all three because it is continually measuring and readjusting to more exacting standards. I've got my machine loading down to a science (that is such a sad little pun here), and still I wrestle daily with the baby of a brainiac who has probably never seriously washed his own clothing year to year in his life. (And don't tell me to read the manual, I have it memorized.) I remember someone told me their car suddenly shut off on a highway, leaving them coasting in traffic with very little control because the smart chip had 'sensed' something. Smart tech drives me crazy because it isn't intuitive at all. It doesn't take into consideration that it can still WORK enough to complete a task, creating its own dire situation like we need to sound sirens and spin lights because something isn't quite 'right'. Click this little cartoon for an article.


    Yesterday was one of those everything going wrong days, and as Scott passed by me for the fifteenth time last night looking for his glasses he glibly overstated, "It seems like we have two different problems going on here...", because neither one of us was helping or even glancing up at the other, which cracked me up. He has a way of cannily pointing out without accusing or harassing that I dearly love. The man doesn't have one sarcastic bone in his body, which is wonderful, because while sarcasm can be funny, it's also kinda stabby, and I used to be one of the nastiest sarcasm villains on the planet.


    Ug, I need to get my brain moving in one direction.

  • iz becoming a thing

    Aspie needs to check her email more often.


    My submissions rep says they can colorize the public domain wikipedia version of the cover art I want to use, and doing that absolves the need for getting permission, yay!

    And this is why I want to use that particular piece so badly, my explanation to her- "I've been very particular about using colors online as part of my 'aspie' thing with my Asperger's. I'm interested in particular in the way the blues seem to emerge as a color spectrum very lightly tinged with pinks and purples, with the darker blue in the background. Aspies are notorious for being drawn to colors and patterns, and my reason for using them this way in a nebula is to prime the reader for a visual when I get into later how our thinking develops over time. I have a degree and have discussed this diagnosis at length with other professionals, and I think this visual is a sophisticated representation of a mind blossoming or waking up, as it were."

    I'm WORKING.

  • How sweet to be an idiot and dip my brain in joy.

    It has begun.

    This time of year for the last several years is weird for me. I suddenly skew off the track into scatteredness and I have a very hard time keeping track of what day it is until the 4th of July has passed. Every year since 2009 I have panicked near the end of June that I have missed the fireworks, and it's still two weeks away. This has happened so consistently that now I'm able to anticipate the brain flux and watch myself from the sidelines. I just discovered that 3 days ago I started writing the date completely wrong. This morning I wrote the date as the 25th on my daily med log (which I've had to do for many years because memory probs, med mixups, and resulting panic), then noticed the 28th in the corner of my laptop screen, went back through the log, and noticed that I suddenly went back in time 3 days ago.

    Five years ago around this time my mom was nearing the end of her 5 years long nursing home residency. As durable power of attorney, I had been the first person the staff called for everything, day and night, and her bouncing on and off hospice several times the last couple of years that she was there encouraged a creeping numbness to grow over me. Still, the 'end' dragged out for months again until finally everything was over in the fall and I was able to switch off my phone for the first time in five years.

    When the first May/June rolled around after that, I didn't notice I got weird. I was busy with other things. My own health was just starting to pick back up after several years of tough illness, and we had plenty of other distractions going on. Same with the next year, and the next, and the next. But I started remembering last year that I've been panicking about missing the 4th of July over and over, which seemed pretty odd. Why was I doing that? I'm not that big of a Fourth celebrator, and it doesn't have much personal meaning for me.

    I've been mulling over this off and on this last year, now that I'm aware of it, and hypothesized that maybe I go off track because my mom's birthday rolls around near the end of June, and somehow I create a very wide cushion of time to scatter myself in so I can surf over that without having to drag through really big feelings. I get scattered and kooky for weeks, and by the time her birthday floats by, I'm diverting my feelings onto missing the next holiday.

    I've been curious all year if I'd be able to notice when it starts, and I just caught today that it started 3 days ago. Now I get to watch myself be kooky and scattered for a few weeks. Incidentally, 3 days ago is exactly a month and a day before my mom's birthday. Maybe I couldn't bear to see the 26th come up on my log and just jumped back in time.

    My life has been filled with puzzles like these, I think mainly because I'm a bit deeper in the autism spectrum than many aspies out there. I'm an expert at diverting myself, and I do most of it unconsciously. Many people like me get diagnosed with schizophrenia or personality disorders by mistake when it's really a social interaction difficulty that grows into weirdness under stress, thank goodness the testing I asked to go through in my 20's didn't get me wrongly diagnosed. As much as I'd like to think that it's more amusing than it is a real problem, and something I managed to hide for many years, the unkindness of aging keeps whipping the tablecloth off my head and now I just have to laugh. Several people have labeled me eccentric through the years, so evidently I glow like neon even when I think I'm incognito. The year before my mom passed I was declared disabled by a review panel including a doctor and a judge, and to my surprise, the mental side carried more weight than the physical side of the discussion, thanks to the Asperger's and a GAF score of 51-60. I'd apparently been functional enough to get through college and hold several jobs, but serious questions of "How?" perplexed several professionals. Honestly, I blame my mom. She was extremely tough on me, and I survived. Maybe this is what my scatteredness is all about, now that she's gone.

    So. I'm a scattered mess. Maybe I can have some fun with this. Maybe I can catch myself doing the time warp again and see what's in my noggin when it happens.

  • beau pantalon

    I could bore myself mentioning the nasty headache I've been dealing with the last 24 hours, or I could just skip straight to the extended length Jack Bauer jeans commercial that's going to get me out the door to where I need to be this morning.

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