Pinky Robot has been temporarily reassigned for July 3rd.
But not to worry! If you are stuck at home or work with not much to do while everyone else is bouncing around, you can have some car wash fun! This one is from a site that has hidden object games.
Lemme guess, you want something more entertaining without having to do anything. *booya* These are things you should never do in a real car wash. Well, unless someone is has puked or it still puking in your car, then you can understandably panic. (edit: original youtube was removed, but looks like someone else put it back up with a new title, contents appear to be the same)
Speaking of panic, this makes my own anxiety look pretty mild. Imagine if it were the zombie apocalypse.
I've made it to July and haven't freaked out yet about missing the Fourth of July, for the first time in 5 years. Been scattered as heck, but now that we're all aware I've been doing this every year, it's been pretty funny. And it is the first time since my mom died that I faced her birthday passing by. My head feels like wobbly jello. Ooh, found a refreshing summer jello brain recipe, click the pic.
You know what? I've decided I don't care what color the rosette is as long as it's not green. Ran into a beautiful pink and purple version someone did, so I'm not fixated on the blue so much any more. The original on wikipedia is public domain so anyone can use it, but it looks too much like some kind of hell behind a title that has Existential in it.
Scott's mom's birthday is the day after the Fourth, and since we're next door, the old days are full of fun memories of fireworks and cakes, because I love making cakes. One year a microburst or tornado tail or something skipped over my house in the middle of fireworks and picked me up off my feet while we were running in the dark, thankfully dropped me right back on my knees. Back to cake. One year I made this one, I think this year I'll try to swirl the colors like the box mixes are doing nowadays.
Ok, I've been trying to get xanga to center pix for 6 months, and now I accidentally do it by attaching an url after I've set the pic. This editor is like a word construction labyrinth. Anyway, here are the camo cakes, click the pic for a happy camper's thoughts about them. I can't haz, because nut & peanuts warnings.
And if that was super awesome, you can get lost in the fun cake search like I did. Now that I've discovered how to center the pix, I find their sudden leap across the page disturbing. I feel like I need to bring balance back to the force.
Big week, better get on it. PT today, burrito and PT Thursday, better pull my jello brain together or I really will miss the Fourth. BE SAFE, people!
My neurologist suspects I had a syncope related altered mental status. He also set up an EEG to see wassup. We're starting with my question of whether I might have had a seizure last week and ruling out a few basics. ER already ruled out tumor, stroke, and drunkenness, lol. Guess we'll see where this goes, probably nowhere. I've only ever fainted once before and it was really different than this.
I've written more here and deleted it three times. I'm really scattered from an earlier pain spike that caught me off guard, can barely think. Just really glad I got my wallet back intact from a Walgreens nearly two hours after I left it on a checkout counter. Spazzing out on Lexx videos. If I get nothing else done today but a nice supper cooked and a load of jeans in the wash, I'm calling it a success.
Taking a brain break, but that doesn't mean I'm slacking.
A couple of sentences that got written yesterday during a 2100 word sprint-
What none of us knew back then was that I was flailing through a cognitive chaotic fog, and, sadly, common ignorance of the time branded kids like me as purposefully defiant and difficult.
and
Back then it wasn't about trying to identify the problems a child might be having, but enforcing behaviors.
Sounds so formal, doesn't it? I'm still LOLing at the rabbit story. You guys are not going to believe the rabbit story. Here's a hint.
I really admire Jenny Lawson, especially on days I can barely move my hands. I've been watching her since before she published, watched her go through some hairy flare ups and surgery stuff, and I watched the world change when she came out about depression and the closets full of secrets we all keep. I watched her deal with severe social anxiety and opening up to the public about her family and work history, and every time I opened her page I was thanking God I wasn't alone.
I was talking to Scott yesterday in the car on the way to pick up burrito about some of the stuff I've been able to get written out, and what a drag it is for me to have to labor through all my angst, but going back and reading it in compact little stories after I've taken a break is very *wow*. I wrote that. (This pic clicks to a funny book review that also got me through a really bad day.)
I fell through every crack. I've been legally judged in a hearing as having a cognitive disability, complicated with severe depression and equally severe physical challenges. I reached a point where I nearly gave up and prepared to disappear forever.
Three people saved me from giving up- Jenny Lawson, Chris Hardwick, and Wil Wheaton. Those click to the books that changed my perspective and helped me figure out how to kick my butt back into gear, in case you need some road maps yourself. I have this shirt, click the pic if you want one, too.
I also thank my favorite chicken for getting me through my darkest hour. She's very old in this picture.
And I thank Tony's Snarkalecs twitter gang for keeping me 'out there' instead of curling back up in my dark cave all alone. (Another click to a funny book review. You're welcome.)
I have never felt better about my whole life than I feel right now, and that's making my coffee more awesome. Plus I have gotten so much encouragement on twitter that I truly never expected, certainly didn't plan on, you guys gotta know you make me float. Oh yeah, no, there's no Harry Potter stuff in here, I was making an allusion because it seemed like it made a good title. Love you guys.
